Yesterday G got given a rather large client due to some moves within his company and at 5:30pm they told him that he's have to be in Leeds at 9am for an important meeting.

This involved getting up at 3am to drive there.

When the alarm went off at 3am, he hit snooze, then it went off again ten minutes later, he hit snooze, then it went off again ten minutes later, he hit snooze, then it went off again ten minutes later, he hit snooze.

By this time I was properly awake and had to get up and go to the loo.

He leaped out of bed and went "Oh fuck Im late!" (big surprise) and proceeded to rush around getting ready.

Now call me anal, but if you need to get up really early and you want to do so without waking someone up, wouldnt the smart thing to do be to get all the stuff you need OUT of the bedroom before you go to bed? So you dont have to go back in there after you get up?

No, this would be too much to ask, because instead of this he walked in and out, put the light on in the hallway and left the bedroom door open so the light shone right in my face and generally made getting ready noises, like a man who doesnt give a rats arse about me not being the one who has the important job and salary to match.

Intead, I have a crappy job, but I still have to be there early! (Though not that early)

Added to this my virus is still nagging me and every day when I go into work my boss says to me "You sound choked today, are you sure you should be here?"

and I say "Yeah Im fine", but I think, well if you want to send me home- feel free.

So after very little sleep, a runny nose, a sore throat and a brand new cold sore, I decided not to go today.

I called by boss and told her, she asked me if I was going back to the doctor, I said I'd see how I feel.

And I feel really terrible.

Because G is going to come home, after not much sleep, and a hard exhusting day to find that I ve been on the couch all day.

And he's going to criticise me for not having any discipline, not in any real way, but he'll raise his eyebrows and ask me what my boss will think.

And I'll feel like crap because I could have- with lots and lots of willpower, dragged myself in today.

And if I felt my work was somehow important, then maybe I would, but the other week this guy at my work didnt show up for a whole week without calling or anything, and guess what? he still didnt get the sack! No one cares!

So fuck it

Im taking some time today to get some sleep and properly get rid of this thing.