I got an email back from this person I bought a faulty MP3 player from on ebay, saying that they would replace it. Thank god!

Plus I found out Im getting a tax rebate that should pay for the big pressie Im buying myself for my b'day.

Which is great, fucking great.

G and I were watching a show tonight about people who develop property in their spare time.

I was going to buy a flat a while ago and G and I started looking for a flat for me, but I decided I couldnt afford it and left it for a while. Ive always wanted to buy somewhere run down and do it up.

With G's expertise and my unhealthly interest in home improvement Ive been thinking we could really do this.

Except G says that he cant really be bothered with the work.

So I said "Well what would we do otherwise, sit and watch TV for another 6 months?"

and its so true.

Things are passing me by, thats what I feel.

In a few days I turn 26, and Im listening to lots of music from when I was 16 and I cant believe ten years have passed.

I remember exactly how I used to feel about things back then, I dont necesarily remember the events but the feelings and little flashes come like it was yesterday- and it was ten years ago!

and I really feel like I should be squeezing more out of life.

Things have happened, but they have happened too me, I dont feel like Ive actively chosen anything, I feel like Ive just let life happen.

But I dont want the next ten years to be like that, I want to make active choices.

So Im buying myself a big birthday pressie to put some of it to rest, and tomorrow Im going to stick a post-it note where I can see it all the time:

"You only get one life"