G keeps having night terrors, this is different to nightmares in that they occur within the first few, deeper hours of sleep and are freakier.

Ive done my research. Anything to make it stop.

What happens is: he wakes up usually around 2 or 3 and sits bolt upright, often his eyes are open although he is still asleep and he often slams his hands down on the bed or shakes to covers thinking that there are snakes or lizards or something in them.

Sometimes he just sits bolt upright and looks straight though me and I can see his eyes glimmering in the half light because of the stairwell light shining through the hallway and into a crack in the bedroom door.

Last night was one of the bolt upright hand slamming on bed nights. I woke with the sort of start you would expect if someone poured a bucket of cold water on you.

It honestly freaks me out for a few seconds, then I rub his back for a while and try and get him to lie down again.

As soon as he lies down he goes back to sleep but it takes me forever.

And in the morning he doesnt remember anything about it.

It got so bad for a while, a couple of weeks ago, that he offered to stay in a B&B for a couple of nights so I could get a break, but as everyone knows, I cant sleep when he's not here either.

When I say Ive done research on this phenomena, it seems that it is much more common to see this in young children. All the articles give advice on how to calm down your 3 yr old- poor G

One article did say that adults that experience this are obviously leading very stressful lives and I think his work and family life are much more stressful that he lets on.

I wish he would "Let on" though, we talked a few weeks ago about him not telling me things, I know something is wrong but he wont share it, because he wants to "Protect" me from it.

Have I not been honest about my strange and fucked up life before Edinburgh?

He promised to start talking to me more, and to be fair he has started to, which I think is really amazing- 'cause y'know, men are men and he's trying to be a better one- for me, unbelievable.