so here I am in London, many hours to go before I catch my plane home.

I was meant to meet Kate for lunch and spend the afternoon with her.

She has her phone switched off.

Im feeling very paranoid, as now that I think about it, Im always the one who calls her.

When we spoke last week she asked for my mobile number so she could txt me hers as she was getting a new phone.

Then a week went by no txt, so I called her on Thursday night to make sure she was still up for today and she was like:

"Oh totally, its weird you didnt get my txt, I sent it the night we were on the phone"

so she txt me her number while we were still on the landline and I told her what time to expect me.

Now her phone is switched off. Its right on when she would be expecting me-half an hour after maybe.

Ive been up since 3am- Im very tired and paranoid.

If someone didnt want to meet up, surely they would just say- I mean I have an invite to the wedding and she said she might come and visit me beforehand in E'burgh just for a break away, so like Im sure she wasnt messing with me.

Ok chill, there is a logical explanation for this.