Except it doesnt feel like home at all. Its not the home I pictured in my mind- that alternative to the home that I actually live in.

Im not making any sense.

I think Im in shock actually because although its about 10 degrees warmer than Im used to, I keep shaking uncontrolably

I miss my G. Even the sound of his voice on the phone was enough to make me weep until I couldnt disguise it in my voice anymore and had to go, so I didnt upset him too, and my folks.

I'd literally been in the house for 5 minutes.

I think Im going to have a sleep then I will feel better.

Geez I really needed a chill pill yesterday. Everything turned out fine with Kate and I, we found each other, its a long story.

Im going to have a wee sleep now, I feel crappy. My Dad has already made a crack about my weight. My nan says I look the same.

They look older and that upsets me some.

I wish G was here, I need a cuddle.

It wont be like this for the whole trip, Ive made a promise to myself of that- gonna have a sleep then get happy.