Its so bloody hot Im melting!

The weather took a turn for the worse today with gale force winds and dust storms. I cursed and stamped my feet and said lots of fucks and wished that it was different.

I also got stood up today which was both tragic and amusing in equal parts.

I was saying to Al the other day that sometimes there is an amazing beauty in seeing someone lose their temper, when you just come to a point where you dont try to fight them you just watch them lose it like a storm blowing and your heart races.

I finally came to feel that way about the weather today.

After all the cursing I just stood and watched the gum trees being whipped into a frenzy by the wind- even though it hurt because of the dust in my eyes. It was beautiful.

Thats the moment when you realise there isnt a single thing you can do about it, you might as well just give up and watch it and appreciate it for what it is.

This applies to people too.

You can curse and stress and wish that they could be different, just this once, but you know they wont be- ever- and then you just have to stop and surrender and try and see the beauty in them just being them, even though it hurts to watch.