The wedding was amazing! The most lavish and expensive wedding I have ever attended and probably will.

Quick rundown:

The ceremony was in a beautiful church in Hampstead, very nice area.

Then we all got driven to the reception venue (some sort of paliamentary place!) in rented traditional double decker buses and given champaigne on the way.

At the reception venue grand hall, more champaigne, photos

Kathleen looked gorgeous

Then we got lead out the back to a massive tent (around 200 guests) where we were treated to a 3 course meal and a god knows how many piece swing band and unlimited bar.

Unfortunately there was some trouble in that this really drunk guy kept leaning on my chair during the speeches- after gently pushing him off twice the guy started rubbing my back and G got a little pissed off and told the guy to get off.

Later he told me that the guy kept trying to make eye contact with him as a "Threat" and G who was more than a little drunk himself told me that "If something kicks off, he wont back down!"

great.

More drinks and many inappropriate comments made by G about the cost of the wedding later and I decided to get him out of there.

Seriously, he's not usually like that!

So after travelling all the way to London, we left the reception at 10pm.

Of course G has no recollection of this.

Anyway, when we got back on Sunday night, the cumulative stress and homesickness Ive been feeling lately, together with the stress of the weekend finally pushed me to the brink and there was waterworks all over the place!

I told G that I think I should move out to get some perspective- he took it really well, I mean amazingly well. He basically said that he doesnt want to see me get upset this way and he just wants me to be happy,so if moving out will help then he's all for it.

This is not at all what I expected- I was kinda thrown by it, but relieved.

So Im moving out, but we're not breaking up, we're just gonna see what happens.

I found a flat to rent yesterday and Im paying the deposit tomorrow.

Needless to say Im absolutely shitting myself, having never lived alone before, but I guess thats the point.

The fear of being alone shouldnt influence your life descisions.

So send your positive psychic thoughts to me, cause I need em.